ughhh i fucked up again theres no hope for me....there really isnt . Im so addicting to bingeing, food is like a drug to me i cant stop i just cant. i wish i was thin i wish i was perfect. This is miserable

Height	Healthy	15% Under	25% Under	35% Under
5'	100	85	75	65
5'1"	105	89	78	68
5'2"	110	93	82	71
5'3"	115	97	86	74
5'4"	120	102	90	78
5'5"	125	106	93	81
5'6"	130	110	97	84
5'7"	135	114	101	87
5'8"	140	119	105	91
5'9"	145	123	108	94
5'10"	150	127	112	97
5'11"	155	131	116	100
6'	160	136	120	104

        UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH im oout of control. I dont know how to control my bingeing its so ridiculous. This first thing i do when i wake is is binge binge binge and i will stay in that kitchen until night time. I was doing so good a few days ago and now i cant control myself. Im a heffer. This summer i was suppose to lose wight not gain it i dont want to go back to school looking fatter than before. I have about a month to get to my goal weight wich is 75-80 . Im not feeling so confident anymore my stupid bingeing habbits get in the way of everything. I really failed this time.

       today was a good day..i havent eaten anything and i dont feel the need to. i feel so good and im really proud of myself. i want to get to 80 punds before school starts. i hope i can keep this up.

todays intake:

breakfast:

lunch: 2 vitamins

dinner: propel flavored water

well anywas how are you girls doing .. i really want to know. if you ever need someone to talk to im all ears.

 So yesterday i did really well i didnt eat anything and i stayed busy by excersieing all day and then the night came.......thats when i ate a small sandwich. I forgot to purge. It was small but i still feel like shit. I'll do better today i'll just take this step by step. I'll meet my goal weight one day i know it :]!

RED BRACELET

Have you ever wondered if the skinny girl you see has an ED (A or M)? And proud of it? You so desperately want to ask, or even try to make friends but are scared? Well, no more ... since we have our ribbon "Ana is a lifestyle..." and its red.

I propose that we all get a red beaded bracelet. You can make it or buy them. Wear it daily or when you go out to secretly say that you are proud to be pro-ana or proud to have an ED that is. Anytime you see someone wearing a red beaded bracelet, capture their eye contact and point to your bracelet, and if they return the same point to theirs ... then they are ED friendly. If not, then its just someone whom is wearing one.

As for those who are older and feel silly wearing a beaded bracelet, wear a red t-shirt every Monday or when you go out on Mondays.

Please pass this along to every proED clubs, forums, websites (secrets/public) for we need to be known widespread secretly amongst us. So, copy/paste everyone!!!